Izma Humaira is 2!!!

Huhuhu loooonnngggg time no write one. But this month must write something sempena birthday month of sweet lil' Izma Humaira :) Yeah her birthday was on 8 December but this super duper busy bee mama (tak tau busy buat mende punnn) was totally forgot about the existence of this blog (same goes for the other blog so no offense). It's not you bloggy, it's totally me, myself and I.

Nevertheless we didn't forget the birthday though so that's good right!!! And we didn't forget to celebrate!!! Although there was no official birthday party for her this year, we had celebrated with both families and that lucky girl got herself not one, not two, but THREE birthday cakes when she is only 2!!! Lucky you my cutie lil' pie ;)

I'm so lucky right mama?

-The birthday girl on 08/12/2011-

Ok2 now let us drool over the cakes shall we?

The first cake on 8th December:

From yours truly n hubby, bought at Isetan Supermarket. Choc banana cake with choc-dipped strawberries on top. One of the strawberries was gone right after I took this pic ;p

Upacara meniup lilin

Upacara memotong kek

The second cake was bought by her uwan at Bangi. Another upacara meniup lilin and memotong kek during the weekends. But sadly I forgot to took the picture of the beautiful cake. Hubby did take some pictures though. I'll get from him and upload the pics here (tapi tak janji tauuuu...maybe i'll do that next year...heyyy next year is just around the corner ya ;p)

Move to to the third cake also during the weekend. No upacara meniup lilin or memotong kek. Just mengambil gambar kek dan memakan kek...those cute cuppies are really yummylicious!!! Bought the cuppies from hubby's cousin who is a doctor but really good at baking cuppies and cakes. Dah2 byk ckp lak...jommmm tgk the pics...drooling~~~

Cute cuppies with Upin & Ipin theme requested by the birthday girl. Thanks to Kak Tini for the pretty and tasty cuppies :)

She was so excited when she saw her favorite character on the cuppies and demanded to eat them right away in the car...huhu terpaksa la ckp 'mkn kat umah wan ye nnt...dah dekat nak sampai dah ni..' (walaupun perjalanan masih jauh ;p)

'Saya suka! Saya suka!'

(ikut nada Mei Mei dlm Upin & Ipin)

And yes the cuppies are all yummy as they look. The cake is moist chocolate cake and the icing is butter cream, not so sweet, just nice :)

So that's all we have for our beloved daughter's birthday this year. Oh one more thing the birthday girl got herself some pressies as well. Two dresses from both opah and wan, a whiteboard set complete with numbers and alphabets magnets (tak tau name ape) from Pak Ngah and a pink tent with balls from mama & ayah :) But for now no space yet to set up the tent...hehehe wait until we move to new house la. For the time being she is excited to play with the 50 colourful balls all over the house....weee~~~

So happy second birthday sayang!!! We love u soooooo much!!! Semoga menjadi anak mama & ayah yang solehah...amin... ;)

 

Raya 2011

Raya Haji is just around the corner but here I am with full gedikness want to share a few (2 only) Raya Aidilfitri pics :)

First raya: We're blue double di double dye double di double dye double di double dye

Second raya: silverly grey, a gloomy birthday...

The first pic my debabness was covered a little bit by Izma as she sat on my lap. But second pic cannot hide it anymore...my defense: I was still preggy that time ;p

p/s: my tudung from Arzu, both exactly same design but different colours...last minute tudung hunting and so lazy to go to different shops ;p

preggy no more ;(( ~~~

"No farewell words are spoken, no time to say goodbye, you were gone before we knew it, and only God knows why..." - OurMiscarriage.com

Yes, sad...but true :(

Baru je update on my entry here about the good news. But suddenly now, i'm preggy no more...so saddd...huk...huk...huk...

But not to worry, i'm a bit ok now. Time heals i guess...so let me share this one of the sad journeys of my life...losing my baby at 11 weeks of pregnancy...it's hard, really really hard...

It's all started 1 day before raya (can u believe this? of all the time, my baby decided to leave us just before raya). So as u can imagine my raya and also my birthday which happened to fall during raya this year were a bit gloomy as I carry around my dead baby inside. I was bleeding 1 day before raya, just a few drops of blood. At first I was not that worried because few days before I had brown discharge and I thought maybe this is normal for pregger to have some discharge every now and then. However when I saw fresh red blood, I decided to share this with my hubby. He freaked out and asked me to get dressed and go to nearby clinic. So just to calm him, I just follow the lead. All the clinics near my house were closed because of the raya week so I told him well, maybe it's nothing and maybe it's normal. So we decided to relax and just wait and see later. But on the way back we passed by Columbia Asia Hospital which was just opened in front of Jusco Cheras Selatan so I said to my hubby, lets' just check if they have any gynae there today.

And so we went there and check for available gynae. And they do have a Chinese lady gynae that day (Dr Lim). We were lucky! So I just arranged for a walk-in check up and after 2 patients I was in. After briefing her on my conditions, we went through the ultrasound. That was the time my raya mood all gone. From the ultrasound she found out that my sac shape was abnormal, it was crooked, not in round shape as it should be. And also my baby was really small, size of a 6-week baby when I was 10 weeks pregnant and the saddest part was that she couldn't detect the heartbeat. She asked if I was certain on my last period date. I mentioned to her yes, it's confirmed and told her that I had an ultrasound scan on fifth week and the doc had detected my baby's heartbeat. Had knowing this, she mentioned that it was almost confirmed that I just had a miscarriage :( To make me feel a bit better since the next day is raya already, she gave me Duphaston for 4 days consumption and asked me to return on Friday for confirmation and perform D&C (dilation and curettage) right away if it's confirmed.

On Friday we went to PCMC instead ;p (because we want to have a free D&C and it's easier to arrange in PCMC as I have my previous pregnancy record there). Dr Seri was not around (of course!!!! it's still raya week ;p) so I went to see Dr Paul Tay. We had another ultrasound and the findings were the same as the previous ultrasound except this time my sac shape looked more normal (maybe due to Duphaston consumption). My baby size was still 6-week size so Dr Paul mentioned that it's confirmed I had a miscarriage and asked if I want to deliver the foetus normally of to perform D&C. I don't think I can wait for the foetus to come out naturally, as in wait for my water to break, having contractions and deliver like delivering a normal baby...huhu. It was enough for me had to carry the foetus inside me for 4 days knowing that my baby had died :(( So I opted for the D&C right away. Dr Paul arrange for the operation theater for the next morning as I need to fast for 6-8 hours before the procedure.

And so I had delivered and separated with my baby on Saturday, 3rd September 2011, definitely a date to remember. I want to share a lot of things that I learnt about miscarriage but I just couldn't yet now. Writing this already made me sad and want to cry (and I'm currently at Big Apple Donuts cafe now so definitely no drama allowed please ;p) so will save it for the next entry (I hope ;p)

20 things that change when you have a baby

I found this @ Babycenter website. Definitely true for me, all 20 of them :)
Do enjoy this mommies out there!

Everyone warns you that having a baby will change your life. Sure, you'll have less money (and sleep), and a lot more responsibility. But when the centre of your universe shifts to your new baby, there's much to celebrate too:

• You discover an inner strength you never realised you had.

• You accept that the last 15 pregnancy pounds you can't seem to shift are absolutely worth it.

• You don't need a clock any more - your baby now sets your daily schedule.

• You respect and love your own parents in a new way.

• Any pain your baby suffers feels much worse than your own.

• You don't mind going to bed at 9pm on a Friday night.

• Your heart breaks much more easily.

• You discover how much there is to say about one little baby tooth.

• You look at your baby in the mirror instead of yourself.

• You're no longer disgusted by babies' bodily functions - in fact, you're fascinated by them (hooray, a poo!)

• The sacrifices you thought you'd made to have a baby no longer seem that big a deal.

• You respect your body ... finally.

• You realise that a baby's comforter has magical powers!

• You give parents with a screaming baby an "I-know-the-feeling" look, instead of a "Can't-they-shut-him-up?" one.

• You make time for one more baby hug and kiss, even if it means you'll be late.

• You realise that it's possible to love a complete stranger.

• You learn that taking a shower is a luxury, never mind a trip to the hairdresser's.

• You finally get to speak to the shy neighbour in your street, because you've got a baby in your arms.

• You find that things that once seemed important are now meaningless.

• Every day is a surprise.

July 2011 updates

July 2011 was the most important month and yet I don't have even a single entry last month! How can this happen? (It always happen laaaa, don't be too surprised). Well the truth is that I was concentrated on my Shaklee blog and totally forgot about this blog already...huhuhu

Ok la let's have a gist of happenings in July 2011, according to the sequence from beginning of the month until the end...

6 - 7 July: Singapore trip - Universal Studios and Restoran Zam Zam (for the murtabak and nasi beryani terbaikkk) to be exact

10 July: Hubby's birthday lunch treat @ Victoria Station Jln Ampang (as usual); sorry gambar birthday boy takde, ade gambar budak tecik je yg tgh boring tunggu food, appetizer je baru sampai...huhu

11 July: Sneak peek to our new home @ Taman Seri Bangi, Seksyen 8, BBB; not a big house but we're so happy to finally set foot on our very first property (curik2 set foot sbb gate tak kunci - actually kunci tak dpt lagi...hahaha)

 

 19 July: Alhamdulillah :) the day we knew that we are pregnant (yes I use 'we' here coz hubby got all the pregnancy symptoms as well, worse than me to be exact...pity him...huhu, it's ok laling we're all in this together! hihi)

 23 July: My very first Shaklee bonus cheque! It's just RM96.72 but it's a free money man! Malas2 sahaja pada bulan Jun dpt jugak sedikit rezeki...Alhamdulillah. Definitely aim for more for July's bonus, insyaAllah :)

Yeah, I know I don't do justice to all these 5 major updates of July by putting them all in a single entry with 1-2 sentences description. If I were a bit rajin I already got myself at least 5 entries for July, no?hehehe dream on la...hahaha and yes, I'll try my best to have an exclusive entry for each happening especially on the Universal Studios Singapore trip. The memories are slipping away bit by bit. Wajib buat entry khas utk kenangan indah ini :) jiwangs laks ;p definitely kenangan indah coz Izma was really enjoying herself there and definitely have to go there again (and again :)), boleh kan hubby laling? *wink*



big rocks, small rocks and sands

Ini bukan entri rock kapak atau rock leleh yer..muahahaha

My office colleague shares a touching story this morning and I immediately log in to Blogger and write this post since I got some free time now (all bosses are not around ;p). Here is the story that he shared:

Can I Borrow $25?
A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.

SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'
DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.
SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily.
SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'
SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.
SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'

The father was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.'

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door. The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down , and started to think: Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often

The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

'Are you asleep, son?' He asked.
'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.
'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man. 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $25 you asked for.'
The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' he yelled.

Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills. The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again. The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.

'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled. 'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.

'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.' The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness.

It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts.

Do remember to share that $50 worth of your time with someone you love. If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of hours. But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.

Reading the story I straight away relates this with another sharing from my boss on how we should prioritize our works based on rocks and sands terminology. It's like this, in one day when you come to work you should list down all the works that you need to do on that day. Then categorize each work into whether it is big rock (very urgent and need to be done immediately, if not will have high consequence), small rock (not very urgent but still need to be done by that day) or just sands (not urgent, can wait until tomorrow). I'm sure despite our busy schedule and all, there are works that actually can wait until tomorrow right? And this is the whole point. You don't actually need to stay all day at the office to get everything done. You just need to prioritize and get your big and small rocks done by the end of the day, and if you have time settle some of the sands :)

To get better picture on this big rocks, small rocks and sands, imagine you have a big jar that you need to fill with all big rocks, small rocks and sands. You need to fill the jar with all three types of elements given and all of them must fit to that jar. So imagine if you put your sands first, then your small rocks, followed by big rocks, by the time you want to put your big rocks, most probably the jar is already full and no space left for the big rocks and maybe you have to find another jar. Now imagine this, you put yur big rocks first into your empty jar, followed by your small rocks and lastly your sands, definitely there'll be enough space for the sands in between the big rocks and small rocks right? Same goes for your work, the jar is actually your working hours. Try to get your super urgent works done first then only you entertain your not-so-urgent and not-urgent matters. InsyaAllah there'll be always enough given working hours without you having to stay at the office until late hours :)

Relating this back to the story shared just now, the big rocks, small rocks and sands terminology can be applied to our personal life as well. To our family and work to be exact. You need to really know what are the three things that represent the three elements (big rocks, small rocks and sands). For example my big rocks definitely my immediate family, my small rocks is my daily work and my sands are my side business, not-so-immediate family and others. Different people might have different prioritization and hence different definition of their three elements in life.

Go back to the story above, for the father, his big rocks maybe his work because he needs to support the family and it's very important for him to perform well at his work and keep his job in order to do so. Then only come his family which represent the small rocks. And for most of us although this arrangement is ok for us as we are still prioritize our family and know how to balance between work and family, do remember that our children can be our small rocks BUT for the children, we are their big rocks! Super duper bigggest rock ever!!! Just like the story above, the son is saving money just to have a dinner with the father. He's doing that because his father is everything to him and he'll do anything to spend time with his father. Very touching indeed...sob...sob...nak balik rumah main ngan izma sekarang juga!!! Hihihi

Although I claim my big rocks are my immediate family, sometimes I feel guilty also when I go back home in the evening, I watch the Korean drama (;p) instead of playing with Izma...or watching the Glee-athon during weekend...huhuhu so much regret! Ok insaf2 balik ni bawak Izma jln2 and play with her until she asleep :)

So peeps, what's/who's your big rocks, small rocks and sands?

Izma Dictionary and Thesaurus

Izma turned exactly 18 months last Wednesday. Not much progress on her height and weight but her vocabulary becomes wider and wider everyday. She surprises us almost everyday with a new word. It's so true they say that baby's brain is like a sponge absorbing everything they can and register it there immediately. So be extra careful next time you want to say something not good in front of your babies. They sure pick them up quickly and next time you know they say those words to you back or worse, to other people. Confirm time tu malu nak mengaku anak ;p

It's so exciting seeing her developing her verbal skill and hence I want to record all her vocabularies as of now. So that next time you see her and she's blabbering alien language at you, you'll know what she means. I'm one of the experts now :) So here we go, Izma Dictionary and Thesaurus, go make a copy before you see her ;p

Starts with the best la kan:

Mama = Mama (yeay me! :))
Yah = Ayah
Dik/Cu = My youngest sister; she follows everyone calling her 'adik' ;p but when asked mana Cu?, she'll point to my sister and said 'Cu'
Pah = Opah
Tuk = Atuk (both sides)
Wa = Wan (my MIL)
Nak = Nak/Want
Ak = Tak nak/ don't want
Shik = Nasik/ rice
Shik mak = Nasik lemak (her favorite!)
Ti = Roti
Uah = Buah (most favourite!!!)
Shu = Susu/ milk or her kasut/ shoes :) - this can be confusing sometimes
Ba = Bam (baring)
Jo = Jom
Pu = Lampu
Dah = Dah
Hot = Panas/ pedas (mama yg kejam suka bagi dia mkn benda pedas ;p) And it looks like this is the only English word in her vocab as of now in the list. A true Malaysian.
Two = Two
Ti = Three
Four = Four
Juk = Sejuk
Nini = Nenen ;p
Be = Bird
Fish = Fish
Cat = Cat
Dog = Dog
Bit = Rabbit
Bo = Dibo
Do = Tido

Ok that's all I can think of right now. Yeah most of them are single phrase except her favourite 'shik mak'...hehe it's so fun hearing her saying all those words. So cute! :) Definitely need to record all these down and remember the moment :))

The big girl :)